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Well previously I've been posting up bout challenge about blog posts, now before I think about what should I post up, I just wanted to wish Happy fasting month and ramadhan kareem to all muslims all over the world. May this be a month where we can focus all our spiritual energies so become more better. I just love the dua' "oh Allah the most forgiving and who loves forgiveness, forgive me for all my sins ya Allah". It doesn't make anyone pious, but what's special about this month, you get more time spend on spiritual things such as praying, qiam, etc2. We would've done that less in the normal months. On the other hand, we have this LAYLATUL QADR. It is on one of the last 10 days of ramadhan. Read on aisyahshakirah posts about laylatul qadr. I found it very beneficial. Jzkk =!

Day 20: Put 3 songs in shuffle mode and thoughts about it

Hello everyone. Today's challenge is about random music.

1. Stay the night - Zedd
This song is for me is sort of a workout song. It's very upbeat and suits the mood. Not soul song or even something you enjoy singing. But its definitely something you enjoy listening. Somehow makes the adenaline rush through your vesseld makes you sort of want to move your muscle. Or something. LOL. Im not making any sense right?

2. Manisnya senyumanmu - Elite
This song remind me of my childhood memories. Really though. It's great song to sing and just brings back the old time. How good it feels just to be a kid right?  No worries and life was just fun and enjoy. Currently, life is more than merely exam where you will hve money issues, peer problems and even relationship problems and I'm not only talking about couples or lovers, I'm tlking about families, isters, bestfriends and whatsoever.

3. Wildfire - Demi Lovato
Seriously I don't know this song. It's new to me but whatever. I just want to mention about demi lovato. Her voice is outstanding plus her life is just simple. I just love her. No make ups nothing. Lover who understand her well. Just nice and perfect. How can even she peform stone cold live?? Insane ~

Day 14: Your life in 7 years

Hello everyone. I've been missing challenge for like 3 days? Sometimes it stresses me that I'm not keeping it up with this challenge but actually, I'm not that busy at all. Maybe just busy comtemplating life. LOL! My life in 7 years ill probably be like, well I will be 27 at that time, maybe just start being medical officer, probably going to get married at that time. I'm not the type thinking about marriage in the future having kids or so..because I know that is something very subjective to be planned from now. Well, I'm more of I know I'm going to finish my housemanship and start being a medical officer. The thing is which specialty I'm going to pursue during medical officer? Currently, the specialty I'm interested to pursue are paediatrics, medical or just keep one option in view. Not yet decided. Just wait for the time to tell which specialty I'm actually good at. Whatever it is, I'm still considering about emergency medicine. I don't know what they do because I've never been in the posting yet, but it sure seems fun by looking at the lecturer knowledge level and experiences in that field. Hurmmm..
Another thing is probably I'm going to pursue for professional exam. Just to get recognition in international level. I also have thoughts about working overseas. Not because Malaysia is a bad country or whatever, but I just want to see more, know more. I just want to have vast experience and that is not from the same Malaysian people. I want to travel, see more. Involve with the community more and reach out more. At this level, I' m just unable to reach out more because of other people's misunderstandings which I'm involved between them which unable me to choose between these two parties. I'm stuck. Just like glue.

1. Pursue specialty
2. Get recognition from international examination
3. Work overseas
4. To be continued......

Day 11: your current relationship

Hello everyone. I've been missing a lot of my challenges. My last one was on day 6 and now is day 11. Anyhow, I've been busy  with weekend courses that I have enrolled which are basic life support course and also advance cardiac life support course. Believe me, those two things are not as easy as it looks. Eventually, you can't really learning just by looking, you are the one who need to be doing it so that you will get the right skill.

So for today's challenge, I will be talking about my current relationship status. I can say it's complicated. Well, that's because I used to be in a relationship for 8 year with someone whom I love most and after that I've found out that he has another girl? WTH right?? Currently, we still communicate normally, it's just I don't know what are we? I can't really say are we friends? or lovers? Somewhere in between. To describe him, he is good looking, physically well built and also good personality. Very charming.

If someone were to ask me what is my type? I would say someone like him. If we are not meant to be together, I just hope I found someone better than him.

Day 6: someone who fascinates you and why?

Hello everyone, I've been really trying to keep track of my posting challenge. It's been 2 days since my last post. I'm terribly sorry for that. Whatever it is, we will proceed with today's challenge which is someone who fascinates you and why? For this post, I'll not be specific just to ensure no one will be taken aback however, someone who fascinates me I would say SOME of my medical lecturers. One of the lecturers manage to get two membership from MRCP and MRCEM. How incredible was that. There is also one lecturer whom I adore how she does her physical examination. They are very fast and systematic. It's easily applicable by her students as well. Also this another lecturer whom I can say the god of medicine. I was really fascinate by how a one sided defect (Left side defect) can cause right sided defect and also vice versa. What fascinates me most is that how the shunt problems lead to eisenmenger syndrome. How rare it is to learn such disease on real patients and that lucky day this patient came with background history of congenital heart disease and the dr immediately after physical examination taught us that the patient could be having eisenmenger syndrome. When reading books, all I can understand that it was heart defect due to prolong one sided defect which leads to other side to be defect as well but this dr explains the hows and why it happen and it was all logic. I was like, why I couldn't think of that earlier

Day 3: First love and first kiss

Hello everyone. Sorry for not keeping on my day 2. There was heavy rain with lightning struct which causes the internet problem for last night. Yep, until midnight. but for today, I will be talking about 3rd day challenge which is first love. I wont be talking about first kiss cz basically, duhh.. religious issue.

My first love which I wont disclose his name, well he was a great guy. Great with kids polite gentle and just say he was perfect. We were in relationship for more than 8 years. unfortunately, our relationship didn't last forever because it turns out he have this one tiny flaw which is he was a playboy. Yes. freaking great person in front of you but turns out he was with someone else as well. What's worse is that he met his so-called girlfriend through social site instagram. I was like, how can you fall in love with someone through instagram? If I knew how, I would done that way earlier than you do. You can say I was devoted, loyal and every adjectives available that would make someone a perfect lover, but sadly I was defeated by someone he knew on instagram. I guess it's just a sign the universe trying to tell me that there is someone else better. Whatever it is, I hope that 'person' would come soon so that I dont waste time weeping about my pathethic ex lover. Whats clear now is that I don't hate him. We're still friends and occasionally in contact. Whats for sure is that he is someone I dont want to spend the rest of my life with.

Day 1: 5 problems with social media

Hello everyone. I've decided to start blogging again because I found it very effective in distracting myself from thinking about my problems. It's funny because it feels like you can let every thoughts in our mind out just by blogging. Yes, I mean you don't have to brag about your problems on social media anymore right? I just don't find it relevant when people brag about their problems in social media..it's not like those problems are gonna solve themselves rite???

So I've decided to do this 30 days writing post and for today, we will discuss regarding 5 problems in SOCIAL MEDIA

1. RELATIONSHIP KILLER
It doesn't matter what kind of relationship you are in. Parents-children, lovers, sisters, bestfriends, coworkers or whatever kind of relationship there is. The problem with social media is is doesn't allow us to have quality time with whoever the partner is. When it's time to talk, just talk mann. There is no point of talking when your mind is probably focusing on your gadget. Whatever happen to  talk-listen type of communication?? It feels just like they've suddenly poof somewhere.

2. ONLINE BUSINESS
No doubt people now days need money badly. Online business is like a boom. Fast growing, fast earning, easy Yes, I agree with that as I am also a trusted online seller. It's just that some people are not very honest/ sincere in making money online. Lots of customers been cheated, sellers cheated by their supplier..just cheating everywhere. It became so severe till they've made a list of  "SPO" which is senarai penipu online. Such a shame people want to make good money for living but some of us take advantages in making money through online business

3. PROBLEMS
there are those kinds whom love to brag about their problems on social media. WHUTTT??  its not like those problems are going to solve by themselves when you share it with the whole world rite?? Ridiculous man this kind of people

4. CYBER BULLYING

Whoever does this is still a bully. I should highlight that and when I said it's a bully, it means you are committing crime. So, advice to everyone out there, please please please stop this issue. To those who are being bullied, ignore those who bullied you and if the case become very severe, report them to the authorities immediately. If you really don't know who to talk to, just tell your parents. No parents would want this to happen to their kids.

5. STRANGERS

Ever heard a case of meeting the love of your life through social medias which turns out they are not as good as you thought they would be?? Be careful with whoever you are communicating. They might be good people out there but there also might be bad people. who knows? the chances are 50/50. if you want to make them the love of your life, its like you are gambling your future. Which you are suppose not to. Well, here is a story of mine. This person whom I've been in a relationship for almost 8 years just cheated on me with someone he met on instagram and it's already been 3 months. I was like WTH? what did I do wrong? I'm still trying to move on but whatever it is, good luck with whoever you are with. We both just wanted happiness but couldn't achieve it with each other.

Give me something

Give me a little bit of time so I can be just like you
In time I can also feel how you are feeling about me. In time I will also be able to pretend our 8 year relationship meant nothing. In time I can also flirt with whoever I want without thinking about you. In time I can also spend a weekend away to socialize with a group of people and not wishing you were there too. In time I can wonder about a new technology and not thinking exploring it with you. In time I will also be able to wonder 'what if?' when an attractive person is standing in front of me. In time, I can also be with someone new. In time I will also be able to appear a champion to you, how I convinced you to be mineand then smashed your heart into pieces but whats really going to happen in that time is that i will be able to forget about what you've done to me, forget about how we came from a point A to B like it was a bad dream, and forgive you because I've completely forgotten about you

Midnight contemplation

Deep down, underneath all this layers of stupidy, he's a really good man. He may act out far too many selfish thoughts, says all the wrong things at all the wrong times, but behind closed doors he's a best friend. I understand that he has idiotic tendencies and I can still love him for it. He may not be someone that you feel comfortable sitting next to at a dinner party but for me, he's someone that I feel comfortable sharing my life with. The best part is when we both make mistakes but we still forgive each other no matter what. All in all, he was a good friend, good partner, good enemy and a good lover. Thank you for wonderful 8 years of memories

Humans and trees

When you go out into the woods and you look at trees, you see all these different trees. And some of them are bent, and some of them are straight, and some of them are evergreens, and some of them are whatever. And you look at the the tree and you allow it. You see why it is the way it is. You sort of understand that it didn't get enough light and so it turned that way. And you don't get emotional about it. You just allow it. You appreciate the tree. The minute you get near humans, you lose all that. And you are constantly saying 'you're too this, or I'm too this'. That judging mind comes in. And so, I practice turning people into trees. Which means appreciating them just the way they are:)